Lately

Last Saturday I found myself looking outside to the hills ahead and breathing deep for the first time in a long time. My mind is trying to clear itself. The “to do list” is long. The last six weeks have honestly been some of the most stressful I’ve ever experienced. And this weekend, a much needed break. A deep breath in the midst of it all.

To say I’ve been tired is an understatement. There are days I have felt numb. I’ve been stretched emotionally and physically. The weight of recent events, all compounding on top of one another, is heavy, beyond what I can carry in my own strength. I have had to lean on His strength to get me through.

I have questioned the Lord calling me to serve in a position that requires so much. I have questioned His presence...are You really here with us? Because sometimes, let’s be honest, it feels like He’s too far away.

My heart knows the truth, but sometimes my head it too preoccupied to remember.

But this particular weekend I am reassured...through the heartache, through the questions, through the cultural nuances that I can’t understand...He is here. He is with us. He is for us.

“God is our refuge and strength a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at it’s swelling. Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! The Lord of hosts is with us, the God of Jacob is our fortress.” Ps. 46: 1-3, 10, 11

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55: 8-9

We have to hold our plans loosely.

HIS plan is bigger than anything we can imagine or think.